Metaphorically speaking here, I’m in a rut and I feel like I’ve been in a rut for a while. It has been getting better; I mean before when I would be in a rut I wouldn’t know how to get out of it and I’d feel claustrophobic and I’d kind of loose my mind – lately though, it has just been this numbing feeling or a feeling where I want to do so much but I “don’t have time” to do all those things because of other stuff (like school work), and I go on thinking about the things I really want to do instead of doing the things I have to do, where I end up not even finishing the things I have to do because I’m day dreaming about the things I want to do. Does that make sense? I swear if my English professor read that she would probably beat me for having terrible sentence structure. (I’m going to put this note here and say that she isn’t abusive so no one calls the cops, she’s actually a very nice lady).
Does anyone understand what I’m going through? Do you have any suggestions to help me focus and get what I need to finish, finished? I’m just completely unmotivated and it’s driving me crazy.
Here is my current situation. I’m in school at the moment (University actually – Junior year). Two of the three classes that I’m taking don’t really interest me, all my professors are amazing and really nice and funny but just the subject matter bores me oh so much. Next quarter I’m going to Prague for a study abroad and by next quarter I mean in just 6 weeks I should be boarding a plane; mentioning that and the fact that I have almost nothing prepared for that trip… I haven’t even booked a flight, which makes me incredibly anxious and paranoid. Not to mention that I have a midterm on Tuesday that I’m currently trying to study for but I just can’t seem to concentrate on the subject material and it’s driving me crazy; not to mention that I probably shouldn’t skip school or work tomorrow but if I don’t I wont get home until late at night to work on my midterm…. Between a rock and a hard place here people!
Anyway that’s it. Just thought I’d write about it and hopefully get some advice from any kind soul who is willing to write me a comment – the amount of discounted Valentine’s day chocolates are not soothing enough for me anymore!
Should I sign this “please help”? That sounds accurate or something like “from your mental break-down blogger friend”? That is also accurate…. Or both, both is good!
From your mental break-down blogger friend,